Dear Heart

Dear Heart

I am not sure if this relationship is really working out. We've been together for so long, and you always seem to let me down. Every time I have a little bit of hope; every time there seems to be a dream that may come true, you pull the rug right from under me.

I have loved you well. I have been true to my wishes but you lead me astray. I have listened attentively when you've called my name, but only to be disillusioned. I've paid attention during all those love stories from Cinderella to Sleepless in Seattle. I dream of Paris, pink diamonds, and long walks on a beach. I'm not sure you understand at all.

Listen, Heart, I don't know if I can go at this alone for as much pain and anguish that you've cost me; I don't think I can live without you. And, with every tear instead of toughening up, I soften up. I find myself smiling, singing, laughing, and loving more than ever. You tear my world apart, and I want to do away with you. Forget you exist and toss love out the window. Teach you a lesson. But you seem to be a step ahead. When I least expect it, WHAM! I'm on my butt holding you in my hands.

Therefore, I've decided that maybe we should come to some sort of arrangement, an agreement, if you will. Maybe you can just wise up a little. Maybe instead of doing what you want, you can listen to me for once. Maybe, just maybe, you can understand we need to just put this little concept of "love" away and not focus so much on it.

I know what you are thinking all the beautiful memories, the romances, the adventures, and the incredible love I've experienced. I know you are aware of my weakness and thrive on it. You must just sit back and watch me falter and fall knowing fare well that I cave in to the incredible power of love. I know what you are going to tell me that love is not what I perceive but what simply is.

I know that as much as I want to break from you, I cannot because you are all that I am. I guess I am stuck with you and all the silly emotions that you have embedded in me. I just wonder, if I have it in me to trust in you yet again?

Lucy Tamajon

Writer

September 2009

Dear Lucy,

You silly, silly child, if only you truly would listen to me and put aside all that comes from your mind.  You see, I am not the one that leads you astray.  I am the one that guides your every step.  It is the fear and anguish generated by your own thoughts that leads you on an alternate path.

No, I will not leave you for we cannot exist without the other.  You are all that I am, you bring joy and hope during the most difficult of times.  And, I in return give you love. 

If only you would learn to trust in me, you would be where you need to be.  Remember, that every tear, every pain, and every struggle has made you who you are. 

Give all that you have, and when you think you have nothing more to give, reach deep down and give more.  Do so without fear.  I’ve got you.   I will never deceive you for only I know what is you need most of all.

Your Heart,

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